Thursday, March 18, 2010
The Happiest Day of My Life
For most parents, the happiest day of their life is the day their child was born. I struggled with this for a time. Knowing that I wouldn't honestly count January 21, 2008 as the happiest day of my life. In fact, it was one of the scariest, most stressful days. So, I guess I could fake it to fit in w/ the norm or because admitting it, esp. on the blog, makes me worry that one day Avery might read that and misunderstand exactly what I mean. But, I'm going to go out on a limb and just.be.honest. The happiest day of my life was 2 years ago - March 18, 2008. The day I carried Avery out of the NICU. The day there were no more monitors to look at, no worrying when those numbers went too high or too low or there was a beep, beep, beep. No more asking when or if I could hold Avery. No more obsessing about whether she gained an ounce. I was finally a mom. A real mom that gets to feed her baby when she wants, when she knows her baby is hungry! A mom that can hold that baby all.day.long. So that is exactly what we did. I really don't think she slept in her crib or got laid down at all that first day. We just all breathed her in and got to really know her. What a magnificient day it was. I remember going into her nursery when she was in the NICU. We left a twin size bed in there and I would lay on it and just look at her crib and imagine that she was sleeping there. Such a simple, silly imagination but so far away in my head. Until that day. March 18, 2008 will always be the happiest day of my life. I hope I can add to that list, but for now, that is the one. A close second was my wedding day, but still no comparison to bringing our little miracle home! Oh, how we love you Avery Grace! Who could have known how much joy you'd bring us in 2 short years...I can't even imagine the fun things we'll do in the years ahead of us!