I've been wanting to share this precious video. I thought today would be appropriate. 4 years ago I walked into a doctors office just wanting to know if I'd be having a boy or girl. I left knowing I'd be having neither. There is no way to describe the feeling of knowing there is a baby inside of you that your body didn't nourish. A baby that no longer needs you. A baby that's already in heaven. I have such sadness when I think of him. Our lives would be so different. Avery would have a big brother. But when I listen to this precious song, by Selah, I realize that I shouldn't be sad at all for him. He got to skip the yucky part and go straight to the goal: Heaven! This is a sad song, I guess, but the love of our Father is shown so clearly. And so this will not be a sad day. This will be a day to remind me that my little boy is in Heaven with a Father that loves him more than I could ever imagine.