Thursday, January 21, 2010

Two Years Ago Today...

  • Two years ago today, I sat in a diabetic counseling session so they could teach me how to eat until you came.
  • Two years ago today, I went to Applebees and realized I couldn't really eat anything from there anymore!
  • Two years ago today, I sat in the waiting room at the doctors office. My worst fear was that you'd be a boy with a pink, girly room.
  • Two years ago today, I sat looking at another sonogram, feeling like I did a few years before. A bit nauseous and lightheaded. Knowing something wasn't right, just not knowing what.
  • Two years ago today, I had a mini-breakdown while being walked across the street to the hospital. I didn't understand why. I didn't know if you'd be okay. I knew I couldn't lose you. I knew it'd be too much.
  • Two years ago today, I was told we were having a baby...in a few minutes.
  • Two years ago today, I became a mother to a micropreemie.
  • Two years ago today I became a mother to the most beautiful, precious, tiny little piece of life I'd ever know.
  • Two years ago today, I couldn't hold you.
  • Two years ago today, I fell into a love I could never explain.
  • Two years ago today, I became your mommy.
I find myself wondering how many more times I get to rock you at night, while reading you "Teddy Bear, Teddy Bear". I wonder when you won't need me to sing "You Are My Sunshine" until you fall asleep. I wonder when you won't really need me there anymore, you'll be just fine on your own. I know in a flash it will be gone. My little baby has already grown into a little toddler, who will be a 'big girl' and then a girl and then a preteen, and then a teenager (yikes!) and then a young woman. I want to cherish every moment with you, every day. Because in a flash, you''ll be gone. I want to cherish today, and remember that two years ago today, I became the most blessed woman in the whole.wide.world.





Photos courtesy of Jami Ainsworth






9 comments:

The Glenn Gang said...

Happy Birthday sweet girl! You were prayed for by so many people and now you stand, run, jump and smile right before our very eyes. You are visible proof of the power of God. Enjoy your day as we all enjoy watching you grow!

Too Many Hats said...

Happy birthday, Avery!!!

Mallory said...

Omg, this is SUCH a sweet post -- I couldn't help but tear up!!! I remember the first time I saw her (at a month old) in the NICU, and I couldn't believe how something so tiny and precious could be so perfect! She was still less than 4pounds by that point and I couldn't get over how tiny she was, even her TEENY TINY little fingers =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Miss Avery, little miracle =)

thekennonfamily said...

Amazing post, Cas! Happy Birthday precious miracle baby! Even though I was 6 hours away, I remember exactly what I was doing when I got the phone call from your Mommy saying you were here. You and your mom have inspired me beyond what words can explain! Hugs and kisses from Arkansas:-)

Beth E. said...

What a sweet post and beautiful pics! Praising God for the miracle Avery is.

I posted a birthday tribute, too. Check it out when you can.

Blessings,
Beth

Penny said...

Two years ago today, MANY people were interceding/pleading for a healthy baby (and mom). Now, look!!! Happy Birthday, Avery! =)

Cristi said...

Wow this time the tears actually rolled down my cheeks. Beautifully sweet post. Happy Birthday Sweet Avery! Nonna loves you!

M J said...

So beautiful!!! Happy birthday to Avery!!! :)

brtty stella said...

Precious blog for Avery. Keep them all.One day she will read and cherish them. God bless Each of your wonderful family. You are always prayed for.