Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Rocking Avery to Sleep
The plan was to have Avery completely off her bottle, not taking a paci and sleeping through the night in her crib when she turned one year old. Plans change. At her well visit Dr. K cautioned against 'shocking her system' with multiple changes at once. He said to take it slow. So we did (although I don't think he meant to take it another 6 months slow!) Often, I feel stressed and 'behind the game' because I want to find a perfect balance between her getting what comforts her (pacis, bottles, sleeping in our bed) and giving her what she needs (just the opposite). But at this point, I feel like I have got to make some major changes soon. I wanted to start reading to her at night and laying her down drowsy vs. rocking her to sleep with a bottle this week. It hasn't been going well. And tonight, while rocking her to sleep and singing one of her favorite songs - "You Are My Sunshine" I realized these are some of the most precious moments of my whole life. When she looks up at me and smiles while I'm singing to her, right before she drifts off to sleep, my heart just melts. And so, I realize, I continue to do our routine because it makes me just as happy as it makes her. And I don't want to miss these moments. I guess in the process, I'm holding her back from growing up and going to bed 'like big girls do'. Oh, what's a mother to do?